Sunday, November 18, 2007

what can i do??

what can we do ..when we are angry?plz let me know...
what's solution to dis situation.....can we change others or it is better to change ourselves...
or is it better to get drunk .....until the moment we are lost....next day everything is the old story ..
or to watch a good movie ..so that we can roam in the imaginary world of movie life...until our anger is gone.......i was in the same situation last evening...tensed ..full  with anger...there are many ways to be in that mood but mistakes is always in 
our mind...what we 
think
..that can be seen in our action ....but there is always a height of patience..i think in my case the level has crossed...one of my closed friend has betrayed me...is not that i was expecting to much from him in this professional college.!!
other reason to be in that mood is that i had a quarrel with one of the hostal staff on some unimportant issue...i have many option to get away from 
this state of mind ...so finally i decided to get hang away ...i bought a bottle of whisky around 9.30..at the
11 pm midnight i was saying cheers to the ,cold blowing wind at night, on the roof ...alone.......d
weather was cool and my mind had also set in that frame.......
i came to my ruum at 12 chattd with a girl on inter hostal lan i get to realize first time dat i can be so annoying bt when i was so much annoying why he had tolerated me for 2 hr at that hour of time...
nyways girls are mixed pickle ..dat have different taste at different mode of time..
i went
to my bed at 2 am..complelety out of anger ...when i wake up at 10 am i realized many thing..........that i have done
to get out of anger ....again i m a alcoholic..d word i hated most..i wasted my money....i cheated my parents...to just get away from my feelings..but finally what can i do at last??

1 comment:

The Thoughtful Philosopher said...

hmm.... u think deep. some pretty strong feelings u've expressed here, suman. if only you could present it better.